So tell me, what inspires you? What or who, makes you want to keep pushing on and loving every moment of it? Why do you keep coming back for more?

I'm so curious to know other people's opinions on these sort of things. I've been trying to find my inspiration, my muse, just somewhere.
It's hiding from me somewhere, tucked behind an amazing piece. I just need to find it now, and it wants me to find it.

Also, if I am going to have a table at Fanime, any ideas on how I should get started? o___o;;

I mean, I don't do fanart. Plain as plain can be. The only fanart I've ever done is for my friend, and even then it's rare. .__.; I've been looking around to see of original art ever does good, and I can't tell. It's sort of a 50/50 chance. I'd hate to do fanart though, because if I do then I'd want to actually recognize cosplayers and other fanarts, which means spending days watching the most popular animes @n@;

Then I have to print and oh gooshhh I don't even know what all I'd want to sell! Hnnngggg I hate stressing out about this kinda stuff but it's necessary to the Fanime experience.
It'd be nice to go to Fanime as an artist though. I mean to sell my stuff. But I hate, absolutely hate when right in front of one of the artists at a table, Mum says "You're art is better then all of these here."

I swear to you she did that last year. You have no idea how embarrassed I was right then ;~; When it totally wasn't true!
After that though I couldn't look them straight in the eye, even though I know most of them didn't hear, just ughhhh .___. That was rubbish.

Then Mum, Dad and I sat out on the grass and I pretended to not hear them talking about me when I was right there. I tried so hard to concentrate on reading the Fanime book, but gosh it was really bugging me how proud Mum was of me.

It's like, she's just way too proud. I loathe that, when she gloats about me. It's painful to hear, because it's makes me feel like she expects something so bloody amazing out of me.

Good for me, I can draw animu characters in different positions.
Big whoop.

She just, doesn't see what I see I guess.

Gosh it seems like every journal has some sort of a rant in it o__o;; I'MSORRYFORRANTINGSOMUCH ;A;
hnnngghhh I hate being stressed